Patients He Says

I guess I never was long on patience. Everyone keeps telling me that I'm doing amazingly well, too bad I don't believe them! Every time my friends see me, or evey session by my therapists visit me, they tell me I am making improvements. Of course my friends only see me occasionally and my therapists are trained to see differences. I however see myself every day; not only every day but every minute of every day! I don't see the improvements they see until I look back at least a week or two!! Then I begin to see what everyone is talking about! That is the difficult part of this recovery! I keep thinking that I should be getting back to where I was much quicker than I am. I keep telling myself that I need to remember that my brain was seriously injured and needs time to heal! The thing is, the brain controls everything! I don't want to listen though! I keep thinking that I should be able to get back to "normal". It doesn't work that way though. I keep telling myself I need to be patient! I have told others the same thing but when it comes to taking my own advice I am suddenly very humbled by my own words. I also have to remember that even though it seems like a long time it has been only a little short of 11 weeks! It isn't unusual for people to take 9 months or longer if they ever come close to a meaningful recovery! That is a minimum of 36 weeks! That means that I have only gone a little under 1/3 of the way to a meaningful recovery! I have to tell myself to be patient. I need to work on that!