Late Night Thoughts

I was going to write about the fact that I can't drive, yet. Instead I thought I would be 
 better off writing about how I have to keep reminding myself of my advances! It is only to easy to focus on the things I have temporarily lost! I haven't permanently lost anything but only temporarily lost them! This is important to me! I need to repeat this  I haven't permanently lost anything! I may have had to make some concessions due to various reasons but not loss. I needed to make some of these changes some time back anyhow! 

Gratitude is the one thing that I feel most! Gratitude for so many reasons! I am still mobile! Yes, I have to use a walker or wheelchair all the time, but that will eventually change! I am so grateful for my therapists too. Because of them I am able to do things easier, and perhaps because I was shown it was even possible!

Gratitude for all the things that now are possible or easy that even a month ago were not possible or at the least were not easy! It is so easy to think that no progress has been made. This is a trap that is only to easy to fall into, especially when one Is very critical of the small things! 

So many things are needed to be listed! This is what I have to be mindful of lest I give in to the feeling that I am stuck in the now of my activity. I have to remember that every day brings advances. Sometimes they are large but usually they are small. The thing is though, they are advances!

These are the things that keep me going. All the encouragement by others means nothing if I lose my own drive to keep on trying.  It is only too easy to feel I'm not advancing enough! I have to remember where I was 2 week or a month ago, not yesterday. 

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